It All Started With Two Black Dots

One year ago today I went in for my first ultrasound.  After having had an early loss a few months before, I was so nervous.  I knew we wouldn't be able to see much so early in the game, but I knew that we were looking for a gestational sac and a fetal pole.


I was so nervous that when the sonagrapher asked me if we had used fertility treatments, it didn't really register that there was a reason behind that question.  She turned the screen so I could see it, and there it was.  A beautiful gestational sac with a yolk sac inside it.  But there was something else - another black dot on the screen.  This one didn't have anything in it, so we were told that we'd have to wait and see.


I don't have a picture from that ultrasound, but I don't think I will ever forget the image that appeared on that screen.  That was my first glimpse of my two beautiful baby girls.  From talking with other moms of multiples, it's pretty common to feel shock and fear when you find out that you're having twins.  I felt both of those, but I also knew that I wanted both of those babies more than I had ever wanted anything.  I don't know which baby was lagging behind a little that day, but I will forever be greatful that she caught up.  I cannot imagine (nor do I care to) my life without both girls.


It's not always easy.  We still aren't getting a whole lot of sleep.  But it's so worth it.  My life changed forever the day I saw those two black dots, and I'm so glad that it did.